1

All I See Are Bones

With one unthinking motion
I fell into the ocean
And sunk down to the bottom
Of your heart
Everything was broken
But I went right on hoping
That someday we would never
Be apart
Now all I see
Are bones, bones, bones
All I see are bones, bones
Bones
Fences needed mending
Wheat fields needing tending
The scarecrow’s breath grew heavy
In the air
We started pretending
Our crippled hearts were mending
Funnel clouds were forming
Everywhere
Now all I see
Are bones, bones, bones
All I see are bones, bones
Bones
Old black voodoo magic
Buried in a casket
Summoning the wisdom
From below
But all we got was static
We climbed up to the attic
And watched the rain
Turn slowly into snow
Now all I see
Are bones, bones, bones
All I see are bones, bones
Bones

2

Long, Long Ago

Seasons changing without warning
Changing as we sleep
Apples rotting on the hillside
Where we used to meet
Long, long ago
Long, long ago
Nightmares forming on the window
Mocking and obscene
Dripping down unto the pillow
Where you used to dream
Long, long ago
Long, long ago
My old car is rusting quickly
In this ceaseless rain
All my memories flood out of me
There you are again
Long, long ago
Long, long ago

3

In The Gloaming

In the gloaming of the night
When all the lights are shivering
I am thinking of you dear
And on the floor I’m withering
And I know that you miss me
And I know that you’re sorry
Wherever you are
Into the phone I carved your voice
Up to my ear I hold it tight
But now the sound is cold and dull
And everything just isn’t right
And I know that you miss me
And I know that you’re sorry
Wherever you are
On my skull I feel your steps
But when I look you’re never there
Out on the street I see your dress
I touched your shadow on the stair
And I know that you miss me
And I know that you’re sorry
Wherever you are

4

Feast of Fear

Whirlwind, whirlwind take me back
To the days before the accident
Everyone’s here for the feast of fear
Whirlwind, whirlwind we’re all dust
Among these beasts who can I trust?
Everyone’s here for the feast of fear
Blow it away
Blow it all away
Whirlwind, whirlwind
Whirlwind, whirlwind help me breathe
Within this cage of burning leaves
Everyone’s here for the feast of fear
Blow it away
Blow it all away
Whirlwind, whirlwind

5

Going Crazy

Everyone’s saying my mind is unsound
’Cause I always see you when you aren’t around
I see you in pages of old dusty books
I see you in places no one else would look
Oh I’m going crazy
You’re driving me crazy
I went out walking alone in the park
I heard you whisper it broke my old heart
People were laughing and pointing at me
Shaking their heads without no sympathy
Oh I’m going crazy
You’re driving me crazy
And I just want
I just want to cry
What is the price of an untroubled mind?
Is there a place that your soul cannot find?
They’re gonna wrap me in a jacket of white
And lock me away in a room without light
Oh I’m going crazy
You’re driving me crazy
And I just want
I just want to cry

6

Never Coming Home

Over this hill there’s happiness
Just around the bend there’s happiness
Oh I wish that it were so
All our precious work is meaningless
In the cold vacuum of time it’s meaningless
And we know that it is so
Searching through these ruins for tenderness
Clutching in the dark for tenderness
But we always come up cold
Behold our slow decline to nothingness
We fight but we are blind to nothingness
Oh we’re never coming home

7

Grotesquerie

It has been so long since
I have seen the light of day
Sickness fell upon our home
And carried you away
Tearing out, tearing out
You’re tearing out my heart
Long ago and far away
When everything was grand
I held you just like a bird
Within my tired hand
Tearing out, tearing out
You’re tearing out my heart
Though I know that everything
Will never be the same
Still I wander through the house
A-whimpering your name
Tearing out, tearing out
Tearing out my heart

8

There Is Nothing

Those tear ducts broke
A flood came out
There was no soul in whom I could confide
The thoughts I held
In your nightmares dwelled
And they crushed me like the incoming tide
That unnameable pain
That incurable longing for something
But there is nothing
Mother did crawl
To the garden wall
And a thorn tore a hole in her side
Slowly she bled
Then the green grass stained red
And I crawled down her throat for to hide
That unnameable pain
That incurable longing for something
But there is nothing

9

I Wonder

It seemed to me that summer
It would never come again
I watched the snow through dusty windowpanes
Every time I dreamed at night
I woke up filled with terror
Silent things were floating in the air
And I wonder how you sleep
And I wonder how you breathe
Do you have a tourniquet?
I swear it’s not for me
The blood it seems to be now ankle deep
Ice is weighing down the trees,
They’re bending down their heads
I can’t remember anything you said
And I wonder how you sleep
And I wonder how you breathe
All the rusted cages that
I kept out in the yard
Those rabid feral creatures were set free
Now they circle ’round the house
And I can’t go outside
I’m running out of places I can hide
And I wonder how you sleep
And I wonder how you breathe

10

My Cold Heart

No one must know
That you are here
Lost in the dark of my cold heart
If they could look
What terror they’d see
Here in the dark of my cold heart
Cruel as a storm at sea
Dim as the light that guided thee
Walking a trail
Through bright dead leaves
Blind in the dark of my cold heart
Summer will come
But you won’t be found
Trapped in the dark of my cold heart
Cruel as a storm at sea
Dim as the light that guided thee

11

One of the Wolves

Why do you lay with the sheep every night?
I know you are one of the wolves
When it is dark and the moon it is bright
Hate fits your heart like a glove
I’ve taken you for granted
What is the name of the curse in your eyes?
Never its kind have I seen
Colors they change with the shifting of tides
From black to yellow to green
I’ve taken you for granted
For years you had longed for a fast sinking ship
On the coast of the emerald sea
In the water last night your fingers did dip
And death was delivered from thee
I’ve taken you for granted

12

Painful Goodbyes

Soon you’ll be going, soon you’ll be gone
Soon you’ll be sleeping under the pond
My heart is breaking, my heart is broke
You were my final undying hope
Why must they lie? Why must they cheat?
Why must I put them all down to sleep?
There is a river burning with fire
One wooden nickel I add to the pyre
Oh I’m so tired, oh I’m so lost
What is the price sir to lift me across?
Why must they lie? Why must they cheat?
Why must I put them all down to sleep?
Time is a vulture pecking my brain
This is a nightmare but I won’t complain
Drink down the poison, raise up your eyes
This is the end of painful goodbyes
Why must they lie? Why must they cheat?
Why must I put them all down to sleep?

1

This Painful Summer

Let’s go hide beneath the water
Let’s escape this painful summer
I can’t bear another night
I’ll wait for you outside

And I’ve been watching through your window
And I’ve been swallowing the rain
Oh I’ve been worried about tomorrow
‘Cause everything is gonna change

Can’t you hear the locusts calling?
From the trees the birds are falling
The sky is filling up with dirt
And everything is wrong

And I’ve been watching through your window
And I’ve been swallowing the rain
Oh I’ve been worried about tomorrow
‘Cause everything is gonna change

Something is crying in the garden
The silent man is breathing with your lungs
Something is crying in the garden

Creatures moving in the river
Faces full of poison clover
In your hair I place my hands
To tear away the fear

And I’ve been watching through your window
And I’ve been swallowing the rain
Oh I’ve been worried about tomorrow
‘Cause everything is gonna change

Something is crying in the garden
The silent man is breathing with your lungs
Something is crying in the garden

2

Poor Desperate Fools

How many times will you tell me these lies?
How many times will I cry?
How many times will you threaten suicide?
How many times will I cry?

I sit in bright red
In those fires that I spread
Burning bright with a new one to love
And you lay in your bed
With your gun at your head
Still desperate for my cold, selfish love

How many times will you tell me these lies?
How many times will I cry?
How many times will you threaten suicide?
How many times will I cry?

My heart’s black and blue
It’s never been true
I’ve lied and I’ve cheated on you
And now that you know
All the lies that I told
You say now your life here is through

How many times will you tell me these lies?
How many times will I cry?
How many times will you threaten suicide?
How many times will I cry?

I’ll tell you it’s true
Death’s waiting for you
How he loves those poor desperate fools
Now go on ahead
Put it right in your head
There’s a better life waiting for you
It’s better then I’ve ever given you
Yeah hell is waiting for you

3

Scars

There’s something in the stars tonight
There’s something in the stars
And I can’t be away from you
No more, no more
Gather up your broken bones
And gather up your tears
We’ve been on this crooked path
For years, for years

Scars upon my eyes and face
Scars upon my tongue
I don’t know what’s happening
All I know’s I’m done
With wandering

Vultures perched upon my head
And horses with no legs
How many times for my own life
I’ve begged, I’ve begged
Liquor finally got to me
Yes liquor ruined my brain
Now every night just like a hex
I call your name

Scars upon my eyes and face
Scars upon my tongue
I don’t know what’s happening
All I know’s I’m done
With wandering

4

Someday I'll Fall

You’re knee deep
But I’m up to my neck
Don’t worry baby
It’s something you wont regret
We’ll take one more breath
Before we go down
‘Cause I’ll tell you right now, baby
We were meant to drown

(Yodel)

Well we got time now
Ain’t no need to rush in
You can call me baby
But I’m a bomb that’s ticking
But I’ll take your hand
And I’ll be at your call
Just remember darling
Someday I’ll fall

(Yodel)

5

Crippled Farms

Cities spread like cancer ‘cross the land
I’ve had ‘bout as much as I can stand
There’s nothing that I would not do
To get revenge for what they’ve put us through

There is no escape in this world
From the things I abhor
It’s all been ruined
By the man, the machine, and the war
God damn them all, God damn them all

They’ve brought their sickness
To our haunted country
On our heads they’ve placed a handsome bounty
How long can we hide on crippled farms
Before they tear us open with their horns?

There is no escape in this world
From the things I abhor
It’s all been ruined
By the man, the machine, and the war
God damn them all, God damn them all

This illusion of endlessness is done
We’ll soon become the dust of ancient ones
Everything we feared will now unfold
The cruel hands of time have taken hold

There is no escape in this world
From the things I abhor
It’s all been ruined
By the man, the machine, and the war
God damn them all, God damn them all

6

Only The Booze

It’s only the booze
That makes me feel this way
And it’s only the drugs
That make me wanna stay
This world is crashing
Fallin’ to the ground
Ain’t no need to worry
‘Cause that’s where I’ll be found

I’m tired of breakin’ those hearts
I’m tired of waking up alone
I’m tired of making
Promises I can’t hold

‘Cause it’s only the booze
That makes me feel this way
And it’s only the drugs
That make me wanna stay

It’s only the booze
That makes me feel this way
And it’s only the drugs
That make me wanna stay
I can’t go on livin’
Like tomorrow is the end
And I can’t go on livin’
With those memories in my head

I’m tired of breakin’ those hearts
I’m tired of waking up alone
I’m tired of making
Promises I can’t hold

‘Cause it’s only the booze
That makes me feel this way
And it’s only the drugs
That make me wanna stay

7

Darkness

It comes every evening
After supper’s over
I go out a-wandering through
Darkness, darkness, darkness, darkness

Birds fly ‘round in circles
And dogs lie ‘neath the tree
Where I stumble and lose my place in the
Darkness, darkness, darkness, darkness

I just don’t care for the light of day on me
I’d rather stumble around blindly

Sometimes when I’m sleeping
And walking I find myself
Falling out the window into the
Darkness, darkness, darkness, darkness

I just don’t care for the light of day on me
I’d rather stumble around blindly

8

Never Forget (These Nightmares Are Mine)

All that’s left are those who are scarred
Those who are buried and those who are burned
But those untouched, oh how they’re afraid
They watch me, and they’ll hate me, until the grave

Oh how they circle, oh Lord, how they prey
They wait for me, and they watch for me
I can’t keep them away
I try to tell myself that nothing is real
This loneliness is something no one should feel

Now don’t pity me
Don’t you feel shame
Never ever forget I’m all to blame
Oh these days are dark
But dear I’ll be fine
Never ever forget
These nightmares are mine

I’ll never know how it feels to be burned
‘Cause I’d never give in, I’d never get hurt
And I’ll never know how it feels to lose it all
And it’s all because I’ll never love

Now don’t pity me
Don’t you feel shame
Never ever forget I’m all to blame
Oh these days are dark
But dear I’ll be fine
Never ever forget
These nightmares are mine

9

Empty House

The worst feeling I’ve ever known
That’s what I’ve been feeling today
I’m all out of drugs and all out of hope
Lord take this heartsick feeling away
‘Cause it’s hard coming home to an empty house

The dog I had I put him to rest
‘Cause he tore up the girl next door
Now I’ve got to live with that
I feel as bad as if I killed my own Pa
And it’s hard coming home to an empty house

Wish I had the courage to slit my fucking throat
Wish I had a bag of that good old fashioned dope
‘Cause it’s hard coming home to an empty house

And everyday that passes away
I might as well be falling down stairs
I don’t wanna go to heaven, I don’t wanna go to hell
Lord just let me keep a-going nowhere
‘Cause it’s hard coming home to an empty house

I lock my doors and close my blinds
And then I just sit here all night
I try to sleep but I stay awake
I know there’s something ‘bout me not right
And it’s hard coming home to an empty house

Wish I had the courage to slit my fucking throat
Wish I had a bag of that good old fashioned dope
‘Cause it’s hard coming home to an empty house

10

Give Up And Die

I’ve done it again
I’ve given into that sin
I’ve fallen so hard
I’m breathless again
I can’t walk that line
You know I never would
And my heart stops time
To think that I could

I can’t sleep at night
And Lord, I cry everyday
And I’ve run out of pills
That kept me sane
We all go through hard times
But Lord just ease my mind
How much longer do I have
I’m dying inside?

Everything’s alright
Everything’s okay
‘Till that moon comes shinin’
On into the day
And not a day goes by
That I’m not dead inside
What’s the point of livin’
If living’s a lie?

Now look in my eyes
Baby, don’t lie
Tell me all my happiness has died
And I got nothin’ else
And Lord I know it’s time
For me to give in
Give up and die