Agonizing Love

Release Date   June 4, 2019
Catalog Number   TRC035

Originally recorded in 2012, then regretfully buried for seven long years, this sad haunt of heartbreak’s past has finally been resurrected for a limited edition vinyl only release. Hear the agony and suffer alone forever.

Formats

Neon Pink QTY: 100 — SOLD OUT
Transparent Electric Blue w/ White Splatter Vinyl QTY: 200
Orange and White A Side B Side QTY: 200
Digital

Track Listing & Clips

1. Agonizing Love
Lyrics
Kiss me like you want to eat me
I’ll hold you ‘til you’re black and blue
Things have been the same for so long
I’m begging to feel something new
Agonizing Love Agonizing Love
Jealous flame now guides me
Through the tunnel of despair
The road is paved with dead hearts
I’d rather be most anywhere
Agonizing Love Agonizing Love
Don’t you ever wonder why you’re all alone?
Listen and I’ll tell you
Everyone is alone
You’re nothing special
Agonizing Love Agonizing Love
2. We Won’t Bend
Lyrics
They all say that we are lost
And we must become one of them
Oh last night as we walked home
They were following us
But we won’t bend We wont bend
And we won’t bow to them

The shadow knows what we could not
The answers all float in his brain
Let us march hand in hand
And rip the truth from his throat
We won’t bend We won’t bend
And we won’t bow to them

Everyone as time goes by
Becomes that which they most despise
No not us we’ll never change
We burn we eternal flame
We won’t bend we won’t bend
And we won’t bow to them

3. Sick Heart
Lyrics
Remember when your uncle died?
We were drunk and missed the funeral
Instead we went out for a midnight ride
Your smile was so bright and cruel
Sick heart sick heart I’m yours forever
My soul will float to Lonesome Town

I lived to make you cry
Did you get my sad sad letter?
Hearing you hopelessly sigh
Nothing else was better
Sick heart sick heart I’m yours forever
My soul will float to Lonesome Town
These tears won’t dry but I don’t care
I don’t care

One day we went swimming in the lake
You refused to touch the water
It was cold and more than you could take
I dove in alone to face the slaughter
Sick heart sick heart I’m yours forever
My soul will float to Lonesome Town

When you held me close
It always made me stutter
I thought that I would give up the ghost
When you said you’d found another
Sick heart sick heart I’m yours forever
My soul will float to lonesome town
These tears won’t dry but I don’t care
I don’t care

4. This Can Never Be
Lyrics
All I have’s your photograph
I clench it in my teeth
And it looks so blurry
I wonder what that means
It’s making me sick my old friend regret

And then I started dreaming
I longed to touch your eyes
The way you choked with laughter
I’ve got to memorize
It’s making me sick my old friend regret
All night all night all night
I gazed into the dark and wondered what would happen
If we should never part
But I am a coward
And this can never be

I thought that I had managed
To push these foolish things away
But now it seems this longing
Is moving in to stay
It’s making me sick my old friend regret
All night all night all night
I gazed into the dark
And wondered what would happen
If we should never part
But I am a coward
And this can never be

5. Making Me Miserable
Lyrics
Darling you’re making me miserable
How did it get so unbearable?
The wailing banshees do wearily mourn
This moldering stillbirth of leprous love
The face that I dreamed of when I was alone
Now makes the skin crawl right off of my bones

Darling you’re making me miserable
The future looks clouded and terrible
The horseshoe has fallen outside of the pit
If bad luck as teeth brothers I have been bit
The face that I dreamed of when I was alone
Now makes the skin crawl right off of my bones

Darling you’re making me miserable
The bucket of sorrow will soon overflow
The roots of uncertainty pulling me down
Your presence offends me when I turn around
The face that I dreamed of when I was alone
Now makes the skin crawl right off of my bones

6. Only Heartbreak
Lyrics
I don’t know what happens when the owls leave their trees
Maybe we could follow them into the icy breeze
Darling come along with me there’s nothing else to do
Let us be content here in the company of two
There is only heartbreak there is only heartbreak

Everything that happens here it happens everywhere
I don’t know what daylight brings and I don’t really care
I struggle hard to tell you this but I don’t make a sound
My jaw it just feels rusted and my mind is in a cloud
There is only heartbreak there is only heartbreak
I just want your frozen body near
Who you were I don’t care
The creature that you are this very night
Inflamed in eerie light
That’s all I want that’s all I want

Silence fills the hours and the hours rush on by
I hear the rapid flapping of a vulture in the sky
I wonder where he came from and I wonder where he’s been
And why he waited all these years to come back home again
There is only heartbreak there is only heartbreak

Something in the bushes well it grabs you from behind
I reach out with my fingers but they break like rotted vines
I howl in the darkness and I beg for one more chance
But the only answer that I get’s your lost and empty glance
There is only heartbreak there is only heartbreak
I just want your frozen body near
Who you were I don’t care
The creature that you are this very night
Inflamed in eerie light
That’s all I want that’s all I want

7. Life is Lonely
Lyrics
Don’t you know it killed me to betray my only friend?
I became a monster when I saw how this would end
And time won’t make it better
We’re in for dark, dark weather
In all these years I’ve learned one thing
Life is lonely

Yes I know I’ve lost you those wild days are in the past
Now we are just strangers nothing good can ever last

And time won’t make it better
We’re in for dark, dark weather
In all these years I’ve learned one thing
Life is lonely

8. Worse Than You Thought
Lyrics
We shouldn’t have lived together
We should have just stayed apart
Then I wouldn’t be sweeping up the pieces of your shattered heart
Oh why does everything fall apart
And it’s always worse than you thought
So much worse than you thought

And when I pushed you down the stairs and you broke your arm
I didn’t mean to do that I know now it was wrong
Oh why does everything fall apart
And it’s always worse than you thought
So much worse than you thought

And now I quickly turn the light bulbs off and on
And then I have a seizure right there on the lawn
Oh why does everything fall apart
And it’s always worse than you thought
So much worse than you thought

9. Horrible Heart
Lyrics
Carved carved my name in your heart
Carved carved my name in your heart
In your horrible heart
Drove through the night just to see you
The vast nauseous sky flowed beneath you
I carved my name in your heart
So that I’d always be near you
Carved carved my name in your heart
Carved carved my name in your heart
In your horrible heart

Rolled in a ditch full of liquor
Soaked up the strength might liquor
I carved my name in your heart
So that I’d always be near you
Carved carved my name in your heart
Carved carved my name in your heart
In your horrible heart

Nervous weary biting of the nail
Don’t forget me freezing here in jail

Where did they go all those sweet days
Beautiful nights bittersweet days
I carved my name in your heart
So that I’d always be near you
Carved carved my name in your heart
Carved carved my name in your heart
In your horrible heart

10. Desperate Love
Lyrics
You had me fooled I thought that you were human
I played the fool but now I’ll do the fooling
There’s no escape from desperate love
There’s no escape from desperate love
You can search this town all night there’s no light
Just the glow of desperate love

The sea of heartbreak in which we are all drowning
It is so peaceful submerged in endless mourning
There’s no escape from desperate love
There’s no escape from desperate love
You can search this town all night there’s no light
Just the glow of desperate love
I was wondering where you’ll be tonight
I would like to watch you burn tonight
But you’ll never know but you’ll never know

The days are long when your guts are aching
You see that heart? It’s ready for a breaking
There’s no escape from desperate love
There’s no escape from desperate love
You can search this town all night there’s no light
Just the glow of desperate love