Longing for Oblivion

I want to start over
I want to start over
I need to remember
I need to remember
Who I was

Saw my reflection in the dust on a broom
One honey colored evening in June
I put down in writing all the things I would say
Then my swollen tongue got in the way
I been searching high and low for the fountain of youth
Is it just a legend or could it be truth?
I don’t know
Come on over here I got tonics to heal
Any malady you could possibly feel
Are you sick?

Dream catcher stole my dreams
Now I sleep with my eyes wide open

My head was a spinning and the lights were turned low
All the people left here hours ago
I picked up your picture it fell out of the frame
Always wondered why you didn’t have a name
Most things in life you just cannot predict
Like a knife in your back they just suddenly stick
And it hurts
If I knew then what I don’t know right now
Could I make a difference well I just don’t see how
It’s all fixed

Dream catcher stole my dreams
Now I sleep with my eyes wide open
Where are you taking me?
Where are you taking me?
You don’t even know but I will go

Hold myself together with string and some glue
Don’t want to miss a second with you
Stitches started itching so I pulled ’em on out
Can’t seem to shake this eternal doubt
Hear the walnuts dropping and cracking the deck
Today’s been a slow motion fatal car wreck
What a shame
When I live to be a thousand hope I don’t lose my mind
Brainless people get themselves in all kinds of binds
So I heard

Dream catcher stole my dreams
Now I sleep with my eyes wide open
Where are you taking me?
Where are you taking me?
You don’t even know but I will go
I will go
I will go
I will go

Tell me again how you’ve missed me
I need to hear it so bad
Tell me again there’s a reason
For wanting to feel so sad
I’m longing, I’m longing for oblivion
I’m longing, I’m longing for oblivion

When your mother died you had no one
To pretend that things were okay
When my father died I felt nothing
That’s what I said anyway
I’m longing, I’m longing for oblivion
I’m longing, I’m longing for oblivion
It’s getting very late the curtains are all closed
It’d sure be frightening if we took off all our clothes

There’s a malevolent presence
Though it does not have a name
See how it darkens the doorway
We change though it stays the same
I’m longing, I’m longing for oblivion
I’m longing, I’m longing for oblivion
It’s getting very late the curtains are all closed
It’d sure be frightening if we took off all our clothes

Time makes monsters
Don’t you know?
Time makes monsters of us all

No fooling I think I got rabies
When the rat crawled into my bed
How he ever survived the dissection
Is a mystery I can’t comprehend
Oh you sure looked pretty last Sunday
Curled hair of a lavender blue
That scarlet letter you’re wearing
Won’t keep me away from you
Another year reaches its end
And I don’t want it to go
But it goes anyway

Time makes monsters
Don’t you know?
Time makes monsters of us all

You said you’d be my Delilah
If I let you in from the rain
Suddenly it seemed so appealing
To do everything wrong for a change
There’s a hole in the roof of this building
I shiver through most of the days
The things you want to last forever
Are the first to be taken away
Another year reaches its end
And I don’t want it to go
But it goes anyway

Time makes monsters
Don’t you know?
Time makes monsters of us all

Counting my friends as they disappear
Counting the days of another lost year
Counting on pain and I’m counting on blues
But there’s one thing that I’ll never do
Is darling start counting on you
I will never start counting on you

Counting the clouds that cover the moon
Counting the aches sick in my room
Counting the stains on my red leather shoes
But there’s one thing that I’ll never do
Is darling start counting on you
I will never start counting on you
One, two, when you were untrue
Three, four, I wanted you more

Counting the tears that fall in my sleep
Counting the fears that dwell in the deep
Counting on dreams that never come true
But there’s one thing that I’ll never do
Is darling start counting on you
I will never start counting on you

Counting the scars thick on my skin
Counting the unlucky places I’ve been
Counting on fights that I always lose
But there’s one thing that I’ll never do
Is darling start counting on you
I will never start counting on you
One, two, when you were untrue
Three, four, I wanted you more

When the seas have dried up
And the Earth is in flames
The loneliness remains
When you struggle to stand
In the dust and the sand
The loneliness remains
Darling we can never be free
We will always be lonely

When the falling bombs crash
And you wake in a flash
The loneliness remains
When the mushroom clouds glow
Through the ash and the snow
The loneliness remains
Darling we can never be free
We will always be lonely

When you think you’ve found love
And you stroll hand in glove
The loneliness remains
When you laugh at the wind
With your idiot grin
The loneliness remains
Darling we can never be free
We will always be lonely

When the lights have gone out
And you scream and you shout
The loneliness remains
With your last lucky clover
You wish this was over
But the loneliness remains
Darling we can never be free
We will always be lonely

Can you help me?
I seem to have lost my way
In the forest
The light grew so dim and gray
I am a stranger here
They call me the walking shadow

Endless travel
The ocean’s so wide and deep
Can’t remember
When last I had peaceful sleep
I am a stranger here
They call me the walking shadow

All my family
I’ve left them so far behind
It is doubtful
There’s anyone left alive
I am a stranger here
They call me the walking shadow

Know there’s something out there
I know there’s something out there
I know there’s something out there
Beyond the stars
Know there’s something out there
I know there’s something out there
I know there’s something out there
Beyond the stars

I was out chasing the moon one night
When a light fell from the sky
It was so mysterious
A teardrop filled my eye
I said what in the world is going on here?
What in the world is going on here?
What a weird way to be living

Know there’s something out there
I know there’s something out there
I know there’s something out there
Beyond the stars
Know there’s something out there
I know there’s something out there
I know there’s something out there
Beyond the stars

Mosquitoes buzzed into my ears
I could not hear a sound
Suddenly the Earth coughed up
An old burial mound
I said what in the world is going on here?
What in the world is going on here?
What a weird way to be living

Know there’s something out there
I know there’s something out there
I know there’s something out there
Beyond the stars
Know there’s something out there
I know there’s something out there
I know there’s something out there
Beyond the stars

What on Earth oh what on Earth
Oh what on Earth are you?
Got my lucky fingers crossed
I always do

All the signs read danger zone
At least the ones I saw
Sometimes when I’m nervous
My old tongue I start to gnaw
I said what in the world is going on here?
What in the world is going on here?
What a weird way to be living

Know there’s something out there
I know there’s something out there
I know there’s something out there
Beyond the stars
Know there’s something out there
I know there’s something out there
I know there’s something out there
Beyond the stars

Without you there is no me
But without me there’s you
How much longer must we wait
Until this day is through
What in the world is going on here?
I said what in the world is going on here?
What a weird way to be living

Know there’s something out there
I know there’s something out there
I know there’s something out there
Beyond the stars
Know there’s something out there
I know there’s something out there
I know there’s something out there
Beyond the stars

What on Earth oh what on Earth
Oh what on Earth are you?
Got my lucky fingers crossed
I always do

Cold delirious night
I knew that it would be our last together
You held me in your arms so tight
The calendar it read the twelfth of never
It’s something I just had to do
I got the wandering blues

Cold delirious night
Every word took on a deeper meaning
I knew that we were wide awake
And yet I felt somehow that I was dreaming
It’s something I just had to do

I got the wandering blues
When I go walking I always walk alone
Follow my footprints through the snow
And pretend you loved me
In the long ago

Cold delirious night
Your skin appeared as thin as tissue paper
The icy breath within your lungs
Filled the air like some lost spirit vapor
It’s something I just had to do
I got the wandering blues

Cold delirious night
The ocean crashed against our crumbling tower
I did not dare to say goodbye
As the clock it ticked away our final hour
It’s something I just had to do

I got the wandering blues
When I go walking I always walk alone
Follow my footprints through the snow
And pretend you loved me
In the long ago

Hello hello hello
Is there anybody home?
I only called to say I’m sorry
The drums are in the dawn
And all the voices gone
And it seems that there are no more songs

Once I knew a girl
She was a flower in a flame
I loved her as the sea sings sadly
Now the ashes of the dream
Can be found in the magazines
And it seems that there are no more songs

Once I knew a sage
Who sang upon the stage
He told about the world his lover
A ghost without a name
Stands ragged in the rain
And it seems that there are no more songs

The rebels they were here
They came beside the door
They told me that the moon was bleeding
Then all to my surprise
They took away my eyes
And it seems that there are no more songs

A scar is in the sky
It’s time to say goodbye
A whale is on the beach he’s dying
A white flag in my hand
A white bone in the sand
And it seems that there are no more songs

Hello hello hello
Is there anybody home?
I only called to say I’m sorry
The drums are in the dawn
And all the voices gone
And it seems that there are no more songs